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Years ago, I could waste whole weekends playing computer games, logged on to dA... killing time. Sometimes it was a bit tiresome, sometimes I enjoyed it. Either way I coped with it well enough. Idleness was fine.

Now, my life consists of periods of extreme intensity which last weeks, sometimes months. I will bounce from one thing to the next, and there is very little time between activities. These activities are mostly work related, and when not, usually something to do with travelling somewhere. (Three months of deployment rolls into office time into travelling to two different countries before back to work). It's relentless, tiring, but very engaging. It keeps my thoughts occupied. Then I'll stumble into a period of inactivity. I go from fifth gear and 7,000 revs to nothing.

It's terrifying.

I start counting the hours until I can sleep. Facebook is a demon. I reflexively check, without realising. Refreshing the same page until I catch myself and close the page, only to reopen it two minutes later. It's not based in logic. What might be a relatively busy day for most people is characterised by hours of intractable boredom. I'm used to hours disappearing in a flash. Now minutes drag by.

My mind, used to running at full speed thrashes itself to pieces over relatively simple problems. My mood plummets, and minor or major stresses come crashing in on me. The prospect of finding something to do for half a day or a day is almost too much to cope with.

Days or weeks ago, I would have simply stepped from one thing to the next, on a roll. But I've stumbled, my home becomes a prison and outside is unreachable and beyond my reach.

I'm used to crises. I'm used to high-stress. I'm so used to being 'out of my comfort zone' that home and normality--the things that are most peoples' comfort zones--is now unbearable.
  • Listening to: Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
  • Reading: Atomised - Michel Houellebecq


United Kingdom
Race: Human
Class: Artificer (level 26)
Alignment: Neutral Good

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Here we go again, because the coffee drinkers have short attention spans. Which is better? 

37 deviants said Tea
27 deviants said Coffee


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nosugarjustanger Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014
Oh haiiiii. :aww:
PlasticusForkus Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014
O haaaaaiiiiii u :flirty:

How do?

(No internet at home).
nosugarjustanger Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014
It's been such a long time!! Who has kidnapped you?

I am doing fine, I suppose. Not too bad, not too shabby. Just normal.

PlasticusForkus Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2014
Oooh. DA has an app!

Work kidnapped me. Also moved house and I don't have Internet yet.
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Celem Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the :+fav: on my railway pic :)
nosugarjustanger Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014
Where have you been, sexy? :flirty:
PlasticusForkus Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014
Korea and Philippines :B
nosugarjustanger Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014
Woah really?! That's cool! :o
PlasticusForkus Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014
Still in the Philippines. Going home via HK though, not SG.
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Bytestream Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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